Day 28 –
By midday, I decided to back out of participating in Live Below the Line. I felt like the limited food on top of the stress of the last several days was just not a good idea for optimal health.
Today wasn’t a great day overall. It started off well enough with a 5:00 wake-up, but it felt like it went down from there. Physically, I was just drained. Mentally, I was exhausted. My joints ached and both my hands were tingling, so it just felt like the best call. With a new grandson and other newborn and baby sessions to attend to, the last thing I want or need is to be run down, sick, and mush-brain again.
I allowed myself to feel badly about it for a short while, and then I moved on. Life is too short to sit around and beat myself up for making the choice to take care of myself.
And honestly, there was a huge part of me that shut down and said NO. I can’t factor in one more challenge that involves food when I’m still trying to learn this new way of living and eating. If you have never taken on any kind of food elimination experiment, you may have no idea how much time and energy is put into learning what you can and cannot eat, and what you can but maybe should not eat, and where all the hidden baddies are, and…it’s a lot of work! Worth it, but a lot of work. So one more thing to figure out was just the camel that was breaking the straw’s back (you see?).
So, with the first horrid headache I’ve had since the first few days, I made a good dinner, ate it, felt better, and released any second thoughts about making this decision.
Day 29 –
It’s hard to believe that after tomorrow, I will have been sugar- and dairy- and grain-free for 30 days. Even harder to believe is that all I crave now (other than when I am face to face with bad things) are healthy things. The idea of making myself a sweet potato for lunch, for example, just makes me excited to eat. I think it’s safe to say this has been a good experience over all.
I did end up going to bed with the same massive headache last night. Though eating felt better, the damage was already done. And with my hopes of avoiding meds as much as possible, I wanted to try to sleep away the pain of it instead of taking something. Thankfully, I woke up to find there was no longer a war taking place in my forehead. Starting a new day the right way with full and timely meals made today much better.
For dinner tonight, I made chicken enchiladas for my family — enough to feed the new daddy and mommy (to go), my eldest and his wife, my daughter and her boyfriend, and my husband. None for me. I also made some mac and cheese to go for the new parents. Both are some of my very favorite meals. I was sure it would be terribly hard to deal with the making and serving without being able to have any myself, but it wasn’t really tempting. I did notice, however, that last night when I was making side dishes for my husband, I was much more tempted to just have one bite. And then I wanted butter bread. Just one. Not a big deal, right?
I realized the difference in last night and tonight is that I fed myself well all day today, whereas in the previous 48 hours, I hadn’t eaten well at all. As in, not full meals three times a day (no worries – I didn’t eat anything off-plan). So, as long as my body has what it needs, the cravings and temptations are low. Starve it and I will want all the things I have not previously wanted. Pretty interesting, yes!?
One more day to go officially. Unofficially, this journey is really just starting.