We woke up to snow today (Colorado, dontchaknow!) and I immediately wanted a hot steaming cup of coffee. No headaches upon waking, but I could feel very strong cravings for that cup…just ONE cup!
The first couple hours of the day have been hard. Even with eating a hearty breakfast and having a smoothie and hot chamomile tea, all before 9:00, I feel this might be a tough day. Though I slept pretty well (despite wake-ups in the 3:00 and 5:00 hours), I feel sluggish and drained. If Day 3 is a good day for many, it so far is not for me.
I experienced an energy surge around noon. This came after I had already walked my miles for the day. If it weren’t for the cold temps and snow (or, more like the not-so-careful drivers out there), I would have headed out to add to my mileage (I’m behind where I wanted to be by now).
I made up a big fruit salad to share with the family, then some juice and smoothies for me for today and tomorrow.
This conversation keeps happening with myself —
“You’re not hungry. You just think you’re hungry. You are full.”
“Yeah, but I’m starving.”
“No you’re not. Don’t be so dramatic. You’re not hungry. You’re just craving stuff you can’t and SHOULD NOT have.”
“You’re right. I’m not hungry. Except I’m sooooo hungry!”
Just to note: I’m not hungry. The rational side of me knows this. I have eaten and eaten well. My cravings disagree.
Related: Pinterest is a terrible place to visit right now.
I find myself intermittently thinking this is a dumb idea and this is a great idea! I also swing between thoughts like, “If I have to give up one food group, I hope it’s not sugar” and “I just hope I don’t have to give up dairy!” (Notice how I’m calling sugar food…)
Yeah, even with a very full belly, I’m struggling with cravings for all the foods I have always eaten.
I know it can get worse before it gets better, and I know it CAN get better. I just keep trying to preoccupy my brain so that I don’t think and think and think about food. When I’m feeling especially weak, I pull up the Whole30 website and read some of the testimonials – a reminder that others did this just fine and they are reaping the rewards.
I want to be healthy. I want to feel better. I want to have energy. All of that is worth so much more than a cup of coffee laden with cream and sugar (and, of course, all the breads and pastas and yogurts, etc. that I am craving).
Three days down, 27 to go.