Sometimes everything lines up just perfectly and you get exactly what you wanted, and yet, you are unfulfilled. I have a husband who is my best friend, and three amazing children who are perfectly healthy and wonderful, and tons of friends who are like family to me, and a beautiful growing career, and Pikes Peak always out my window, and on and on and on. And yet my heart, though full of joy, feels like something is missing.
I’ve dug at this feeling, this discontent, trying to understand what is missing, why I long for something else, and what that something else is. I do know it doesn’t come in a gift box and that money can’t buy it. I know that it won’t come from the approval of others or in standing on “stage.” And I know that it will likely be what I never expected to do in my life. But I don’t know anything more than that.
What I know – what I believe – is that every day I open myself up just a little more to what is to come. Trusting. Leaping. Climbing. Seeking. Knowing that the answer is found in looking up, in continuing toward the little nudges, over each hill, each whisper to let go, release, and push on.
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” -Matthew 7:7
I am not unhappy; I am merely aware that there is more, that if I can open up and ask, it will be given. And there is a slight bit of trepidation in that unknown factor, but more than that is excitement, anticipation. What is it? What will it be? Who am I becoming?
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